(e)motion. move me.

3 words i try to keep in my sight are: diligent, capable, and relentless
diligent - because that is something i lack, but fervently desire
capable - to remind myself that i can _____. beginning perhaps, with diligence.
relentless - this one was added most recently, by a dear fb friend (who i pray may be a true friend someday, though her honesty and transparency lead me to forget she isnt already). we are to work hard, and rest well. but i often let myself slide when it comes to difficult things, like diligence. so i punctuate it with relentlessness. we have to give ourselves permission to do that, so that we do not find our souls misreading it as self-debasement, or punishment. great is the reward.

i usually think people need to smile when they look at art. but what if they need to cry? what if i need to? or am...
so i painted a bottle full of tears. inspired by the words of a king of ages past, in his cry for God to remember him and see his pain. "put my tears in your bottle" he asks. make my sorrow a priceless and delicate collection in your heaven! how beautiful! so i painted it. and shared it with my OpenStudio group. one of the dear friends cried, and didnt know why it moved her like that. i'm so honored that it did. so honored.

the writing is in hebrew, "śî·māh dim·‘ā·ṯî ḇə·nō·ḏe·ḵā" - put my tears in your bottle.


i dont feel like rehashing a different blog i just finished (yeah, i have two that i dont tend to. the other is my more private thoughts, while i am using this one to focus on art as my sole subject), so i'll share the link, and say that i think it is nearly time to change things... art should move us, not just be something we glance at and pass judgement on (be it good or bad).